They Still Call me Sam,...(concluded)

So as I sat at the table with him, he began telling me more about what was going on.

I cringed thinking to myself what could be worse then this?

So he held my hand across the table and said "I am sorry."

My mind was racing a thousand thoughts going through my head including the abuse I went through.

I started to speak, and he gently put his hand up to my mouth saying "I need to speak, before I" ... he then had a tear run down his face and his voice changed.

He said "I cannot marry you."

Now anger flared up as I yanked his hand off my mouth. I screamed "WTF do you mean you can't marry me?"

He let out a slow sob and replied. "Because, I was coerced and knocked up my boss."

When I heard the words knocked up and coerced my tantrum was on.  I was ready to go to his BI**H's house and confront her.

He gently, yet firmly grabbed my arm and said "You need to hear the full story."

I was thinking like Hell I do.

So I opened the cupboard ad grabbed out our bottle of tequila and took 2 swigs as he continued.

He said about 7 weeks ago, when I went to my bosses door to tell her about our wedding plans, I noticed  a strange wooden paddle with black lace around it and became fixated on it as we talked. I believe she noticed how uncomfortable I was seeing such a strange object in her room and slowly teased me about using it, i felt like I was five years old again.

I believe she knew I was abused and bribed me that if I "played" with her I would get a bonus for our wedding.

Every instinct inside was fighting to say no and walk out, but I felt compelled to obey her wishes. So I gave in and let her use the paddle on me and it turned into more then just punishment when she realized I was getting excited over the abuse and made me satisfy her needs.

He said. "This is why I have been so distant the paste several weeks, I have been wanting to tell you, but felt too weak to say anything."

At this point I was shocked, beyond upset, and disgraced by the fact this continued for 7 weeks and was still mad as hell, but a tiny part of me felt sorry for him.

So we agreed to not get married, and he started counseling immediately. I am still pi**ed of at him and what happened, yet told him I would be a friend, but nothing else.

Still Upset,

Sam

PS  If you ever have gone through something like this, please reach out to Mandie or your therapist and wish you the best of luck.