"This book is ideal for those ready to heal from their pasts and reclaim themselves. The author takes the reader on a guided journey to acknowledge the truth of the past through vignettes and exercises that promote cultivating compassion for self. There are opportunities to journal and exercises designed to promote self acceptance. This can be a quick read but in order to fully gain all the author carefully lays out it is best to return to the book and experience the very practical and thoughtful advice."
Is it TRUE...did that really happen?
When you have never been abused, and you confide in a friend, besides the expression of shock, he asked me "did that really happen?"
I can remember the look on his face when I begin telling him my story. I could sense that yes, I can confide in him, and he was different from the other men I have told my story to.
Most men used it as an invitation to do what they want with me. They abused me like my adopted father father used to, and made me not want the world to know what was going on.
I hate to say it, but even my female friends, felt sorry for me, but were more interested in getting what they wanted in life. For the longest time, it felt abuse was the only LOVE I knew.
After he asked that question, it was a combination of him wanting to know if the police were involved and why I didn't run away.
He didn't understand after being abused since the age of 5, I had no self-esteem, no sense of morals,...except for the fact I hated it. He didn't understand how violent it got and the physical and physiological abuse I endured and was too frightened to speak out until i was a teenager. By this time I had three abusers my adopted father, his son and his adopted son would abuse me on a daily basis.
When I did get the courage up to run away, I was placed in a temporary home, they arrested my adopted father but he was soon released, saying I was lying and that I was messing around with other boys. So after a short time, the state placed me back in the monsters den. Within 24 hours I was severely beaten where I couldn't attend school for a week, and the abuse continued full force.
Sometimes it is difficult to think about these bad memories, but if we don't speak out, the monsters win.
Even though my reprieve was short lived, it gave me strength to carry on until I was 17 and left my abusive family. The point I am trying to make is we need to find someone we can trust, that will lead us out of our demon infested life style.
The man that eventually believed in me, gave me the strength and courage I needed to move forward. He has helped by understanding that many people either turn the other way, or take advantage of broken innocence.
That is why we have been married for over 13 years, and am ever so grateful for meeting him and getting the help I needed and to create this site to help other's know, WE are not alone!
If you or someone you know may be in jeopardy, be their hero and rescue them, or just listening can help as well.
Prayers,
Mandie
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